MiKo0 ... one thing I've learned in 50 plus years is you shouldn't make decisions when your emotions are high and strong. Your feelings about your art are all mixed up with your feelings about a person. I've burned manuscripts because I got upset. I wanted to be a novelist and I burned my manuscripts so now I'm a want-a-be who has a pile of ashes to look at. And, yeah, I can write again...but it won't replace what I destroyed in those pre-computer days (no back up). Just as other friendship you have won't replace this one. Just as future art won't be the same as what you've done to date. But ride out the feelings and just might find yourself feeling a whole lot different in a few days than you do right now. It's always nice to get applause, but I don't think all the applause in the world is going to solve the mysteries of the heart. Take care.