I'm a bit young to claim that "I know what you mean" but in my own right I do I guess. I understand what you're going through. At one point in my life my family and I were in a terrible car accident mother/father in the hospital for 12 months, they got divorced as soon as they got out, I had to live with a foster family because my grand parents refused to take us, they refused to take me to see my parents, they only took me for the money that DSS or whoever handles that was paying them, I was one of 6 other foster kids for the better part of a year. After the fact my father refused to pay child support, my mother didn't sue the drunk driver that hit us because it's not part of her values, and she couldn't work because she was physically disabled for the better part of the next two years, which she didn't collect on (she is a proud woman). I, being 7, was not much help as well as my then 2 year old brother. We had what we kindly refered to as 'macaroni summer' because all we could afford was bulk macaroni (store brand, not kraft) and ramen noodles. Needless to say we eventually climbed out of the hole, and it was pretty damn deep, therefore, I am sure you'll find your way out. It may seem like the walls are too steep and crumble when you try to climb up, but remember, the dirt eventually fills up beneath you and the hole becomes shallower. untill you have leveled your life once again. Best of luck, ~Ornlu~