Ahh, Zhann... Hope things work out for you, cheer up, it's not ALL dark. Hardships exist to temper us and force strengths to the forefront that we might not know existed. You are NOT a victim of fate's cruel game... Even if you ARE such, don't ever let yourself believe it! That path leads to ruin. Keep your chin up and put forth your best efforts, and keep your husband from despair as well. You are a wonderful person, and I know that sometimes it doesn't seem like our graphics-work will ever really pay off, but be persistent, no, RELENTLESS! It's always darkest before the dawn, indeed! - Jared