I personally think it's ridiculous, Striving. Internally, you really DO care about the popularity, and you really DO care what the newbies think, otherwise you would just NOT care. I could care less what Renderosity itself, or 99% of it's users (read : the Poser crowd) think of my stuff. I use this site as a place to post my art online, since I have no HTML talents, and a place to get feedback and GIVE feedback. Who cares what other people think? You do, apparently. I'll miss your artwork, I hope you leave your page up for us to gawk over, even if you post nothing new. And I wish I could convince you to pop by the forums, this is where the real learning happens and I've always loved your input. May you find water and shade, my friend.