Bless you. I have been through this six times, a couple were quite developed. It is a terrible thing to endure, and many people try and console you by saying things like "never mind you can have another". The only thing I will say to try and console you is that time does heal. Personally, I do not want to be part of a 'grief group'. That is just me, I prefer to move on with my life, I have been through a lot of very down times but I am still alive, I have family and friends and I am going forward now. My thoughts are with you and I pray that you find some consolation is whatever group you establish. Hugs, Elgyfu