it's good you brought this out in the open Michelle, too much hurt, like a heavy cloud, the tears keep rolling in... i can so relate to your feelings... the loss of your cats, our friend, feelings of self-doubt... except maybe the sucky part, i don't think i suck :] or think my work is crap, just not as good as what i've seen out there you know i have felt it too... sure we all have... noticed it happening a couple times... shot off an IM... hey, what are you doing?? what's the matter... talk to me, don't do this... please stop... it doesn't make you feel any better... maybe temporarily... but them you miss it... sometimes i find it scary to post but at the same time it's a shot of adrenaline, it makes me feel that much more alive... i live so isolated from people, it's beautiful here in the country but i need the interaction... & i wonder how long will it last there's a piece of me, a vision, love to share... you, Michelle & you, Danob were there when i began & took the time to encourage me... there are those out there who are starting new too, who could use some encouragement, i remember how grateful i felt... still do & then our friends that awe us daily with their images... so maybe we're partial with our comments... goes back to that previous thread from last week... but yesterday, i realized just how much love there is in our gallery... & what a kick in the gut it is to find someone you care about announce they're not worthy & just disappear, to see others hurting... i couldn't do that to the friends i have made here, i've thought about it but not after this... there are a few i've seen, like racin-jason, who can make a graceful & eloquent departure (back now :) or still others that just fade away, course it is like a celebration when they show up again well, guys... could be there's just not enough sunshine & warmth out... those winter blues, mid-life crisis, whatever has taken hold... but come on... smile!!! :D * g r o u p ~ h u g z * hey... did you see Janet J's boob pop out during half-time? damn those wardrobe malfunctions! hehehe where's Tedz?... i need to disco...