I'm sorry to hear about your cat. Mine had to be put to sleep recently (he was 21), so I understand what you are going through. I'm sure your kitty had a wonderful and loving life with you. Go to one of the rainbow bridge sites like http://www.rainbowbridge.com , or the new version of it at http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html , and remember that he will always be with you in your heart.