This is such a shock, as much of a shock as when my ex-husband/still friend died almost the same way: young, no one knew he was THAT sick, and he refused treatment, and has been depressed in some way... it was like he was just done with this life and ready to go on. I hold on to my personal belief that we do not die- we go on, we are still us, but no longer sick, depressed, we are free from the pain whatever manner of pain that is/was. Please don't blame yourselves, but yes, you need to go through all the parts of greif which includes anger and guilt... but he would want you to let the guilt go, I am sure! Love and good thoughts to you, Billy. (oh my gawd...my ex's name was Bill too... it just sunk in... how very strange). I am going to go cry now.

Life Requires Assembly and we all know how THAT goes!