I do not hold it against you Binder at all. Once, long ago, when I was just starting out as a literally starving artist, I borrowed software to learn on, but always told myself firmly and severely that it was only so I could learn, and get work, so I could pay for it really. In the end, I did pay for it, and so did not let myself down and feel badly inside :) I am certain that in time, when your circumstances permit it, you will want to pay for the software too :)