big hug I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. There are losses in life that will never quite mend. My experience is though, that when the wounds heal, the scabs have fallen off, there is a sort of surrounding comfort in the knowledge what you've shared with your loved one. I still miss the loved ones that now are missing from my life. I still know that I loved them.. and they me. And I feel joy in the memories I shared with them. Britt