oh, I don't know about that. I've lost a few friends myself that way..and it sounds like you're fairly young, so you have a lifetime ahead of you..no reason you can't go to Australia for whatever reasons you want..and it's a big place, so there's lots to do. Travel itself gives you a new perspective on the world, and the law of averages says your luck has got to change sometime. You've got talent, judging by your gallery, so play on your positive strengths..I know from experience that being depressed is one thing, but letting it take over your life will cause some folks to distance themselves, which makes a vicious cycle..I was a sick puppy once..(whaddaya mean once?..;)
So face what life has given you, make a plan, and go for what you want in life..dang this sounds like a self-help book, sorry 'bout that..gotta learn to appreciate yourself, because I know folks here do..take care..

I wish I'd said that.. The Staircase Wit

anahl nathrak uth vas betude doth yel dyenvey..;)