yulia, , my fun is art as in the whole spectrum, it is my life. i get lost in it, for days sometimes...You could've read a tutorial and learnt how to do portraits in a single night.... see. contests are holding you back !!, as an artist i feel im most artistic when my imagination is free to decide what it would like to paint. Doing art that others have ordered/requested asked. ect ect, is work...i dont like work. and you and i do not think alike. Best regards ~ KAOS ~