Forum: Bryce


Subject: Bad news... But could be worse

bandolin opened this issue on Jan 17, 2005 ยท 24 posts


Quest posted Mon, 17 January 2005 at 9:08 PM

Sorry to hear of your ailment, my thoughts and best wishes are with you for a speedy recovery. Ive just come off chemo back in July, it does knock the stuffings out of you and it affects different people differently. Some get all the side-affects while others only suffer a few. I rarely became nauseous but the few times that I did, it was not a pleasant situation. One day I was doing my weekly food shopping at the supermarket, being alone I needed to do this for myself, I became violently nauseous and broke out in sweats and chills (I was always running a temperature) but fortunately, except for once, did I ever follow up with vomiting. A friend advised me to carry some candy or sweets in my pocket that when the feeling of nausea comes over you, pop the candy in your mouth, its supposed to help it subside. What bothered me the most was the overwhelming feeling of always being tired and generally lethargic. All my body joints hurt, it was perpetual flu-like symptoms and unsteady on my feet and gait. The chemo kills indiscriminately from the inside out and this includes red and white blood cells. When your red cell count gets low you become anemic and the slightest exertion becomes a major task finding yourself with shortness of breath and wild heart palpitations, going up a flight of stairs feels like a marathon run on your muscles, your doctor will more than likely prescribe Procrit. This drug is often taken together with the chemo and it stimulates your bone marrow to produce red blood cells. Your white blood cell count must be watched very closely because once this count gets low, your immune system becomes deficient to fight off diseases. On many occasions this threatened to cut my treatment short or brought me close to hospitalization for blood transfusions. I usually kept to myself and stayed in my apartment like living in a bubble to protect myself from the outside environment and the danger of diseases. Always wash your hands. A major side affect concern of chemo is that it has a tendency to make you depressed and sometimes to the point of being suicidal. You must keep a close watch on this because it sneaks up on you slowly. One of my doctors other patients attempted suicide by cutting his/her wrists so my doctor was always on high alert. After my sixth month, everything began to bother me and I started to dwell on my misfortunes but this was my signal to inform the doctor and he put me on a mild anti-depressant: Paxil. After taking this for a few months, you must be weaned off of it slowly. Coming off too soon would throw your system into wack mood perhaps also making you suicidal. Invariably chemo will make you lose weight since one of the side affects is loss of appetite and taste. I lost 30 lbs only to regain them quickly after I came off treatment. I also suffered skin rashes and itching and had to go see a dermatologist for creams. Some people experience loss of hair or thinning, sometimes it grows back but not always. I guess it depends on your disposition and family traits. Read what side affects are caused by your treatment. You often will experience things which would make you question if its the drug causing this or is this an onset of a different ailment. Talk openly with your doctor and more importantly, make sure you fully trust your doctor. Its going to be a trying experience and you want your doctor to make himself or herself available to you at all times. All in all, remember that everyone is different. Whereas I was forced to take a one year disability leave from my job, such was my reaction, you OTOH, may not be likewise affected and be able to function well in your daily chores. What ever happens, I sincerely wish you the best.