i'll IM you in a sec, William. tears...i'm so sorry i had no idea that something happened to bring you down and to have made you lose the feeling for taking pics and stuff. You're not made of armour, William. None of us are. You're a human being and you have feelings. You've dealt with a helluva a lot, and believe me I do understand what it's like to keep taking punch after punch after punch after punch. but after awhile you can only take so many punches. and yep, it can be something "seemingly insignificant" that can just push you over the edge...at least for me anyway. Yes, I do understand what you're going through. It used to be that i would do my damnest to not let anyone know i was goin' thru hard times. i used to keep things in and not let my feelings show. that's not easy. eventually i would just like burn out...like a dying ember. and i know what it's like to just get to that point where i don't have words. it happens to me too. sometimes i just don't have it in me. anyway, let me IM you now. whatever you decide, whatever you need to do, well, you have my support. and you always have a friend. huge hugz sheila