It's more or less the pain of waiting that's causing the combination of excitement and negativity. I'm reminded of a song by Howard Jones (lyrics slightly modified) because we know it's...right...beyond...our...reach... You can look at the menu but you just cant eat You can feel the cushions but you cant have a seat You can dip your foot in the pool but you cant have a swim You can feel the punishment but you cant commit the sin And you want Bryce and it wants you We want and we want And you want Bryce and it wants you No one, no one, no one ever is to blame Sing it with me, Shrek! (sorry, wrong movie) ;)