blinks Um, Anton, wow.... Brutal emails and IMs? I didn't even know I was capable of that. I never spoke to you on the phone. Are you confusing me with someone else, or did you forget to name who it was you spoke with on the phone and that you were talking about someone else in that paragraph? It certainly wasn't me, because I don't even know what you could be talking about there. I don't dwell or hold grudges as a general habit, but if I did, I can't think of anything for which I would hold a grudge for against you, much less meat enough to dwell on or harbor any hard feelings. Looking back on my saved records and emails of the timeframe you described, I think it's possible you may have misunderstood why we mods took the actions we did. What you describe is not quite what shows in my records and saved emails of the time. I can see, however, how a misperception may have occured on your part. So, I'm not accusing you of lying only suggesting you might have misunderstood. On another note, I am indeed sorry to read of your loss. That is really tough. I wish your heart comfort and all the best.