So glad you aren't leaving :) And I doubt anyone would yell at you either. We all say things in haste out of frustration. Venting is a good thing. Welcome back :)

"It is good to see ourselves as others see us. Try as we may, we are never
able to know ourselves fully as we are, especially the evil side of us.
This we can do only if we are not angry with our critics but will take in good
heart whatever they might have to say." - Ghandi