Hi all,

Its been a while since i posted anything on here so i thought i would let you all know i'm ok and whats been happening lately.

Well since my last visit here a lots gone on, i started to get into working again but because of my never ending back problems i had to give the job up..strangely enough i do more sitting at home than i had done there which we can't figure out why it would cause my back to play up there and not at home.

After a day or so out of work i started trying to get back into doing something in Bryce, man its hard when you have your mind working away on other things. Anyway i messed around with those reflective spheres over different terran and such but nothing came from them.

2 weeks ago on Wednesday i had the cops/police turn up to my place at 11 pm, both the wife and i were outside having a cigarette when they came, they asked for me so i knew it wasn't going to be a friendly visit.
They had informed me that my sister inlaw had been trying to contact me from Tuesday to let me know my farther had passed away Tuesday morning.

I have no idea how many of you have lost someone close but up until the time of me going to perth to help my brother arrange everything it never really hit me that my father was gone. Even now while typing this out i'm finding it hard to come to terms with..tears starting got 2 go..sorry guys this is actually the only place i could post and get my feelings to come out..i think i really need to just let go and have a cry over it but i can't....this is whats hurting me the most.

Sorry all for my post, you have all been good friends in the past and i need to talk to someone about this..

You talk all you want, CD ... we're friends here and a lot of us have gone through the loss of a parent.  Even after so many years for me, it's hard to think of Mom and Dad not being here.

Condolences to you and to your family and prayers going out to you.

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. My own father passed away a while ago, came as a shock as he was doing well enough the day before. He was having some troubles so out of convience we let him stay overnight at the VA (Veterans Administration) hospital, since they wanted to run some tests early in the mornings for a few days. Instead of driving back and forth, he agreed to stay there for three days. Big mistake. The final day he was to be there we get a call 7 AM saying that he passed away. When we arrived the head nurse said they didn't expect the medication (that they were testing him with) would give such a reaction. Then after she realized what she said, she backtracked and didn't want to admit anything they did. Later they loose his medical records, which was found months later. The autopsy was clearly from a different person. To this day we don't know what happened to him. Anyway, it affected everyone. Couldn't concentrate at school, it was like walking through life in a limbo.

Now we just have memories. He did everything to provide things like an education for all the family. So now, it's been a decade since he passed away, all the family will talk about him, if he could see his own sacrifise that his children have all graduated, become engineers, lawyers, etc... that there's a lot of things we wish to say to him. Well.. anyway... :-(

I don't know what to say except to offer you comfort and what prayers I can. My deepest condolences.  :-(

Sorry about your lost...   my father pass away a long time ago....  It took me over a year to realize he was gone...  really gone...   I'll never see him coming to visit us again..... 

I think of him from time to time....

Sorry to hear about your Dad, 'Dawg. Lost mine February 26th of this year.

Still on depression meds. Hit me hard and left me as my Mom's prime caretaker (a privilege).

You'll never get over it, but you'll get through it. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way.

John

Lost my father-in-law april of this year,  2 days before my birthday.  I dont think it has quite sunk in yet.... it seems unreal.

Not long after I got married in 2001 we found out my wife had thyroid cancer.  Its been a rocky road ever since.

Initialy I just kept to myself and went into hiding... and I got sick.   I decided that it wasnt the right thing to do so instead I decided to talk about it in some other forums just like you did here.

So this is a first step in many to a recovery, I dont think the hurt will ever go away, it will subside in time.

As long as you have memories of you're father, he will live in you're hearts and minds.

My condolences to you and you're family.

Were here to hear you out anytime you need to talk about it.

I am so sorry to hear. We are always here to listen, this place is family!

I'm with Incarnadine. Our condolences for your loss. 
I never fail to moved at how this forum responds to people in need.

I am with you in spirit as well CD.

I know just what you mean about it not sinking in that he is gone. I lost my eldest son 3 years ago, and I still cannot believe he is no longer with us.

Virtual hugs coming your way.

Thanks all for your thoughts and prays. I'm sorry if i brought back sad memories for some but talking about it as help in some ways.

Yes talking about it is self help and healing!!  Were here for you!!! and that goes for anyone else who is going through hard times.