I hear you CD.  And without going into details in this thread...I understand.  :)
It's a good sign though.  Your looking around the net.  Sharing interesting links etc.
Give it some time.  Don't push it.  Just let it happen.
Sorry, I really suck at communicating my thoughts, lol.  Hope this makes some sense.  :D

Persevere...

"Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication." Leonardo da Vinci