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Thanks all for all your kind words and suggestions... believe me I have considered all sorts of ways to go, be it sugar substitutes or poser stuff! :)  And as is often said "...it's complicated".... but as you can tell too, from my personal page, I am not the type to give up...get really frustrated and sometimes really sick....but keep getting back up on the proverbial horse...soooo we shall see.... 

FYI...just for a laugh or maybe a sympathetic giggle you might want to take a look at what came from my muse:
See link!

Life Requires Assembly and we all know how THAT goes!