I agree with ZannZen except in my case it wasn't retirement..I became disabled and couldn't go out and work.   I went thru the period of depression that you are probably going thru and one day I came across a free 3D program called Daz Studio.  It gives me a way to be creative and keeps my mind off of the past and on the here and  now.   :biggrin:

 

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