Mine was forced retirement due to ill health, I had an accident in 1972 and have never been 'right' since, I was registered disabled in 1976  the medical proffesion told me to relax, I would never work again.  But I ignored them and carried on working up until two years ago, when my back went again, this time I have torn a disc and it is protruding and agrevating a nerve and so now I suffer with nerve pain.  The above thoughts are not constant, but I have thought them quite a few times, somebody elses words jolted my memory.  I am never idle when I do get up, its just that I do not have a clear cut purpose anymore.

This is the first time I have ever writen my thoughts down and looked at them constructively.