I went thru the depression caused by the final realization that my life had changed and wouldn't be the same as it was...ever again.   One thing I did in the beginning was alienate everyone in my family...I don't regret that because my family was, and is, dysfunctional.  I'm talking bros and sisters and we are all over "middle age"  lol.
The next thing I did was start writing it all in a journal with the intention of writing a book.  I may never get the actual finished book out of it..but writing it all down is like getting it all out and clearing the negative thoughts from your mind.   Now I concentrate on my art and the friends I've made since.
If you just reach out there is always someone here who will help you

 

“For those who believe, no proof is necessary. For those who don't believe, no proof is possible.”

[Stuart Chase]