Yes, AnnieD, it would be too much on what's left of my family if I did something like that and I can't inflict that pain on them.

But  the hurt is so deep.
I don't know the full story of his death even though it happened here at home.
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When my daughter found him, I went rushing to see if he needed help and I'll never erase that sight from my mind.
I only know that from what I saw, I can't believe it was suicide.

We won't get a ruling for at least three weeks.
Until then it is left hanging like a big ugly, black cloud.

Let me introduce you to my multiple personalities. :)
     BluEcho...Faery_Light...Faery_Souls.