Thanks everyone! It's been a very long 4 years and finishing my back-to-work program was the last piece of the puzzle which has allowed me to gain control of my life again.

Physically I'm still not 100% but I'm able to manage well enough on the ward to do my job safely. In time hopefully my unresolved physical issues will straighten themselves out. If not, that's ok too because I've learned to live with feeling light headed sometimes. My body has gotten so used to it that I get an "aura"  when it's going to happen before it happens, so I can actually sit down to avoid a full blown episode of fainting.

"It is good to see ourselves as others see us. Try as we may, we are never
able to know ourselves fully as we are, especially the evil side of us.
This we can do only if we are not angry with our critics but will take in good
heart whatever they might have to say." - Ghandi