Sorry to hear that you're having a hard time, hope you get over it, I'll sure remind you in my prayer.

I'm sorry to hear that you're  impoversihed, but I'm not going to donate any money at the moment. Looking at your galleries it seems you have invested quite some money into poser (content) and other applications, while it sounds like that money should have been spent/invested otherwise. You're also spending a lot of time creating images, perhaps a change of spending habit and spending time on more serious things that do give a real income may be much wiser?

Artwork and 3DToons items, create the perfect place for you toon and other figures!

http://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/index.php?vendor=23722

Due to the childish TOS changes, I'm not allowed to link to my other products outside of Rendo anymore :(

Food for thought.....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYZw0dfLmLk