I didn't spend any money on Poser since the Strokes. PERIOD. I spent time creating imges because I COULDN"T WALK OR EVEN HOLD A FREAKING PENCIL! I HAD TWO STROKES!!

Two.  It takes spell-checker and a lot of patience to hit the right keys with my fingers. I practice making images because it motivates me to get better. I need rehab, which the local state gov WILL NOT PAY FOR.  SO, I rehab myself as much as possible. It is grueling getting limbs that almost don't work to do anything. I get out and shuffle around for at least an hour a day to try to keep fit.

I'm doing better, but I'n still screwed up to hell and gone. Vocational Rehab has quantified me as severely handicapped, so I can't qualify for unemployment. I have applied for Disability abd all the SSI bullshit, but it hasn't come through yet. I've been turned down like almost everyone who applies, abd have appealled it with a lawyer. I'm hoping something might come through this year.

I have checked with local churches and such, and the sad,sorry news is they are strapped by the stock-market crash,too. there is SO many people screwed by the situation, they are all broke in the area.

I live in Nashville, Tennessee, and there are over 10,000 homeless in town. I'm just a face in the crowd here.  No friends locally, they all moved on to other places. I have plenty of people I talk to world-wide on the net, but no one local.  No family either, they all died in a house-fire when I was 12.

Rehabbing myself IS a serious thing. I had over $27,000 in IRA and combinged savings when I had the first stroke.  In over two years, I went through all that. I checked into all the government programs and got some help, but not enough to actually stop me from ending up homeless. I am working damned hard on surviving and being told I'm frivilous for spending my time trying to restore some kind of function on my own is ignorance personified.

I spent my money on doctors and medicine and survival.  To assume otherwise is foolish at best.  Because I nvested in something I love WHEN I was on TOP, why am I being kicked while I'm down.

I REFUSE to be invisible like most homeless, and will never go quietly into the night. If I didn't need help in the most desperate way, I never would have mentioned it here, because of heartless and ignorant people.

HOWEVER...That aside. I do thank those who have helped me.  I have a thick skin and have dealt with people on the WWW for a while.

@TheOwl, thanks for the hygiene tips, I do appreciate that.
@Patorak and other, thanks for all the effort, I really apreciate that,too.

Just because I can access a library PC, WHEN THEY ARE OPEN, doesn't mean anything.  The public library doesn't allow uploads or downloads.  As far as my books and otherstuff, they trashed them over the weekend,  They're all gone, now.  That's life. At least I saved my PC's, so I can restart over again. I lost everything I own before when I went into the hospital in 1981. The apartment house I lived in burned down, while I was there. My stuff was fine in the basement, but I could never get anything because the rest of the building had collapsed and was blocking access to it.

At least I got to pick and choose what I'd take for a couple of days, this time, so it wasn't too bad.  Days to pick through, is so much better than a fire or flood or twister, where you might have seconds or no time.

On the good news side--I have applied to public housing and might be accepted within the month at a disabled person's apartment house for Elderly and Disabled!  It'll take a month to process the paper-work, and I should know something after the fifteenth next month!  All I havce to do is survive for a month and I might have a place to live.

You may now knock on wood, where available! :laugh: Oops! Out of time already. The library only grants an hour of this stuff! More news as it breaks,later!

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