Wow.  :blink:  You must be made of tough stuff, Connie.  My life has moved along in a similar way, but to have so many huge negatives/losses crammed into such a short period of time is hard to imagine.

"It has to get better! Just has to".  Hang on to this.  Life seems to cycle through the good and the bad.  I'm bipolar (type 2) and my depression is unrelenting even on medication so I have to be told this often.  I just wish I had some practical help to offer to you.  :sad:

Edit:  Oh, and you don't have to apologize for any of your posts.  I'm glad to "listen" if it helps.