Nice article magicmoondesigns!  I actually developed a form of Cushing's Syndrome, called Pseudo Cushing's, when I went through the period that I mentioned above to Connie.  It's caused by too much cortisol in the body.  It can do nasty things to body, mind, and spirit.

When I was little and cried I was often told, "Stop crying or I'll really give you something to cry about."  That always meant a spanking.  Of course it made me really scared to cry.  I wish I could cry more now.  I really need to, but I guess, even though I'm depressed, my meds prevent me from crying.  So, Connie, if you need to cry you just let it rip! 

My parents emotional states sound like yours, Connie.  What helps me is to remember that they are the products of their own upbringing.  Take a look at what their parents were like if you can and it can really help with understanding.  I always feel really compassionate towards my parents when I do that.  And I do it for my grandparents, too.

I don't know if you are "overanalyzing" really.  I think it helps us grow when we are able to see things about ourselves and our loved ones more in depth.  Awareness is a very good thing.  Don't be like me, though, and do it constantly.  It'll drive you nuts.  :eyeroll:

I agree with magicmoondesigns, I don't think I would have been as strong as you under similar conditions.  I think I would have been spending time with the folks in the long white coats.  :ohmy: