Dude!  That is so unspeakably sad! You make you gallery seem like a dusty old crypt!  If you aren't enjoying what you do, pick up a new hobby you can throw yourself into heart and soul! Life is too short to muddle through something you have no fire for!  I only started six years ago, but I'm just getting started, and it really fires me up!  I love it!

If any hobby becomes a labor, dump it. Do something you enjoy, if you aren't getting paid for it, move on. 

I cannot save the world. Only my little piece of it. If we all act together, we can save the world.--Nelson Mandela
An  inconsistent hobgoblin is the fool of little minds
Taking "Just do it" to a whole new level!