Thank you everyone!

I had my appointment with the gyne-oncologist, and my surgery is scheduled for July 7. I could have had it done on June 9, but the doctor that was scheduled in the OR that day, scares the heck out of me based on what I saw while I looked after his post-op patients at the other hospital I worked at.  Their surgeries went well, but it was all of the other stuff that I saw. So I decided to chance a months wait and have someone else do the surgery. I'm very happy with the surgeon. I know him too. 

Also, I found out that they don't typically do chemotherapy for the type of cancer that I have. If surgery isn't enough and they discover that it has spread, they will do something call "Vag Vault HDR", which is essentially internal high doses of radiation.  There would be 3 treatments.

The odds are definitely in my favour. A 94% 5 year survival rate.

I'll be off work for 6 weeks and have started the process of getting the paperwork at work in order.

I work in a cancer centre and everyone is great and because of the nature of what we do at work, they are all very understanding, especially my manager who went through a cancer scare last year and had to have the same type of surgery I'm having done.

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you all for your well wishes and to give you an update on what's going on.  

I'm scared out of my mind and doing my best to fight off the depression that is trying to set in. It's difficult, but I'm trying to find every positive that I can in order to keep myself from withdrawing from the world like I so very much want to. Each day I don't want to get out of bed, but  each day I force myself to get up and join the land of the living.

"It is good to see ourselves as others see us. Try as we may, we are never
able to know ourselves fully as we are, especially the evil side of us.
This we can do only if we are not angry with our critics but will take in good
heart whatever they might have to say." - Ghandi