Hi Beck :)..see the ":-)"...wish I know how to make this a big one. Well, in life....we never asked for things that happened to us that most people do not want...or rather "do not want"...but its "inevitable". You have been strong all this while and been taking it all like a heroine. You have a strong mind and I have in great extend believe "mind over matter" and you have it :) Yes, tell your self you be here in three weeks time as if nothing has ever happened, make it two weeks, will ya!? Koam...sorry to here about your dad. My dad had cancer too but he did not 'go' because of it...but a "stroke" at a very old age. He hand stomach cancer and internal complication when he was in his early 40s....had things 'poser' up inside, 'deleted' all the unwanted polygons and vertices smoothen and he 'rendered' very well for a good 20+ years. The thing is that he did not 'go' because of cancer...and I thing it all depends on body health and condition, state of mind and of course...goood 'poser artist' from the hosiptal. So Beck, there you go...take it on like you told me before...the time has come to get well again without the 'rough' polygons inside :) The "Will to live" is stronger than a "Wish to go" (a Chopstick saying), hear from you when all is well...my prayers is with you :)