tebop, I really think (and I mean this with all sincerity) that you need to get off the computer and Internet for awhile, get out of the house, and just live!  Weren't you the one complaining about not having a girlfriend?  Well you're not going to find one in this forum, especially the way you keep putting yourself down.

It's quite obvious you have a need for attention, you are probably lonely, but cyber friends are just a poor excuse for not living life to it's fullest.   Get out there.  Take some pictures, go to a museum, join a local group with similar interests.  Nothing beats face to face social interaction.

What is your current situation?  Do you live alone, with family, roomates?  If you are stuck for answers I suggest seeking professional help, posting your personal problems in a Poser forum is not going to make things better....for anybody!