Dear Jason, I read your message and then went away from the computer for a while to avoid tears. I have lost 2 infants myself, and although I can't know exactly how you feel, I do know what it's like to watch the light in your life go out. Please don't let it stay out. It was too easy for me to lose myself when I lost my children. Take care of you. Let the people who love you take care of you too. Losing an infant is made worse than other deaths because so few people knew and loved the person you lost. Everyone says it's "a very private pain" and that only makes it harder. By sharing your experiences here, you've let us all know your son. He is missed by many. So much for avoiding tears. You have my most sincere sympathies. Phoenix