If the human body were perfect we'd all last a lot longer, sadly, for some, "we are all too human." I'm sorry for your loss, it's never happened to me, so I can't say how I'd react, but I hope that someday you will see past the pain at the joy that a life well lived, however short, can be. "There are two ways to meet life; you may refuse to care until indifference becomes a habit, a defensive armor, and you are safe - but bored. Or you can care greatly, and live greatly - till life breaks you on its wheel." - Dorothy Canfield Fisher later jb