Bushi, I am very sorry to hear of your present situation. I know from personal experience how much it hurts. I know I felt like it was a personal failure on my part, something inately wrong with me. A friend told me of her own troubles years previously which were far worse than mine and over time she bounced back and I have begun to also. In fact, in most ways, except perhaps my bank account, I'm better off now. You are an intelligent and creative individual, no bank manager can "reposess" that. If you will allow me to pass on some wise words; Acknowledge any mistakes you made, don't believe that you are a failure, accept the help of your friends, continue to use the talents that you have and start building again. My best wishes for your future, and I sincerely hope we continue to see you in the Community. IsaacNewton