bushi, Words fail me. I endorse everything everybody else has said. I only wish there were something constructive I could do to help. Surely with your mixture of artistic and technical skills you should be able to find enough work to pay the rent, even if it won't keep you in the standard to which you are accustomed. Don't give up, hang in there. Even if we can't do anything to help directly, rest assured we're thinking of you. Good luck, Maz. Looking forward to the day when you return.