Often when good changes come our way, we can't see it happening until much later. These changes could possibly be in the works right now. You do what you can, and keep on growing. If you WEREN'T on edge right now, now THAT would be a problem! When in similar frustration, I always escape into my photography and computer. You'll find you will do your best work! A silver lining, perhaps? Hang in there Slynky!