Enjoy the journey, dont get discouraged! There is much to learn and it takes time. This is an entire art and science unto itself. Your not going to master it overnight. Ive been doing this for years. I look back at my old stuff from years ago that I thought was really good at the time, and its like "oh my God, thats awful" We dont realize how much we learn and get better over time. Your subconscious brain has to become "trained" Can you explain to me how to speak or see? Can you tell me how to ride a bicycle? Of course not! Art is much the same way. Sure we learn techniques as we go, methods and proceedures, the use of the software, these are tools and skills to be sure and are required to execute your vision. But it is the training of your brain "the language" that unknown unseen quantity that comes with practice that will take you where you want to go.

I think you've made great progress so far!

Chris