Star, I had this cat Orpheus, he was a soul mate, Im not kidding you, when I was sick, the cat would sit at the top of the bed all night and keep vigil, if I had a fever or was freezing he would cuddle in tight to me, he'd clean my hair, he was my best friend. One morning my roomate let him out accidentally, he was not an outdoor kitty, and when I got up a half an hour later he was outside across from my house, laying in the grass dead. I will never forget him, he was a true friend. This nutcase I have now, Tucker Bones Jackson, I have had for seven years and I love him to pieces, so I understand.