Poppi, Hang in there, sweetheart, and if you need help to afford a professional to get a deadbolt in let us know - I'm sure the community could help out, like we help bone when he's short. I suffer from panic attacks too when I get really stressed and then get phobic so I have some idea how you feel. If you don't suffer from them, folks, be glad. They can be terrifying. So please let us know if you need help. Goldfire