Vinnie I can understand your story and how you just couldn't create or feel alive without your family. Maybe one day you can bring your family back to the US, and then you can have it all?! Let's just say "in a former life," I had a woman and beautiful girls, briefly. "Life and troubles" split us apart, and I thought I would die. I wanted to die. I floundered for a couple years till I found Dodi, my wife over the internet. I had felt a calling to Maine for years, or decades. I couldn't quite figure it out. Stephen King, my favorite author lives here, but that wouldn't be enough to call me here. I had never lived in Maine before. Dodi had moved here only a few short years before we reunited. Dodi came here to start a new life near a woman friend she had met during seminary in Maine. Dodi's friend was the minister at our wedding, in the church where Dodi preaches. My Dad did the Sunday services while Dodi and I went to Portland (an hour away) and had our honeymoon. I do believe that my previous relationship, as special as it was, was a warmup for my marriage with Dodi. Dodi and I had "gone together" as shy teenagers (16 & 14 years old), and lost track of each other over the decades. Those early years were not a good time for us "to get serious." We had a journey, and growing to do, separately. We are more ready now.. although I was an absolute mess when I first flew up here to meet Dodi. I'm better now, thanks to her patience and love. And thanks to friends like Roger, Barry and my Renderosity friends! Ron