Dont feel too bad, you just described some of my damnations, I gave up on the handles long ago and just use the dials. After 2 months I'm just coming to grips with the lights, suggest selecting different sets and experiment by moving them individually to see what they do. When you've cooled down and finished pouting,you can come back out of the corner.Remember "Nil desperandum bastardum carborundum" or loosely translated, "Dont let the B.... grind you down" Tommy.