Expression of  fractal minds...or need I not need your words. Is your art enough for me???

I kind of wonder  tonight… we all have one or two things in command. One we love fractals . But what about what they do to us while creating them. Some are a surprise of glorious mistakes that just render in.. Some we try to maneuver to create what we see. Most all of mine I see things and try to grow from what I might vision. Others I see way to many things in them and wonder if I’m going crazy or do the faces really appear as I see them? Then there are the eyes that pop and I work hard and profusely to make it more real and piercing or sad , lost or filled with glee. The beautiful flower I vision yet haven’t learned to fully create. There are those who are born with the natural talent for beauty and it just falls in the lap to create what’s in their hearts and minds. I having a learning disability have trouble following tutorials or instructions; I  am call Miss. Clicky Fingers in my house.(I do things backwards , with a very poor memory.) This is how I learn by trail and error. I don’t care. It’s not what I want to get across here. I’m no different from any other artist. ( I have to giggle at that last line. )  What I do know about fractals is that I find them amazing to expand my mind to places I’ll never see in the real world. Just the beauty that you all bring to me sends me in a wonderful fractal tizzy. Of life, color, motion, love of all things beautiful.  Mostly the togetherness of the love of the same thing.; FRACTALS is was is so great.  What something’s are taken from me mentally I’ve gotten back full with the challenge to create. The comments I get aren’t a whole lot in numbers, but it’s the expression one gives to me that makes it feel like it’s better than a million comments. I couldn’t ask for more. I do wish I had more time to look throughout the galleries. There is so much talent it is out of my mind to see and comprehend it all. I love the fractal world and the people I’ve met. I’m learning from you all and just want to say thanks and I appreciate this community. My blessing to you all. Do share with me some of the wild and crazy and maybe even the sadness and sorrow that runs through you while working. I mostly find it a escape from the physical and mental pain. It is healing me and making me strong like I once was.  I have grown so much since my first post. I’ve never been scared while working but the house isn’t getting any cleaner….lol I really admire all your work and ladies however do you make those beautiful flowers?  Why not share some inner peace or rant of your work. After all it is your work and I feel expression from it. But what, I don’t always know. Or is it not for me to know. Just view the beauty. I just want to learn what it does to you.  Thank you all for sharing and teaching me through your wonderful work…or should I call it play. I’ve always admire those who use their mind to pleasure ones day and share what they feel through art poetry or any thing creative from free will. Good night.  Do tell me how you work. I’m very interested in knowing how you go about the beauty of creating expression.

Therese

hi therese,

i saw your letter, in which you reveal so much.lots of us have been reading it and so far no-one answered it, yet it is very brave of you to make a statement like you did. i admire you for it. although i have no dissability in learning, as far as i know, i remember how difficult it was to go through tutorials. i fiddeled around for ages with the tutorial at hand ( i had my husband made it print-out in bookform) and i followed the directions, making notes all along.when i did not understand any more what was said, i quitted the process and months later, after fooling around i tried the masking part again.until now i still don´t know how it works.my images are still a proces of starting with A and ending completely somewhere else, creating is not a fixed thing in my mind, real artists can do that, i can´t, so that makes it a delicious hobby for me. when i am really satisfied with something i bring it out, and you are right, if if only one true comment is given, i´m happy.i am still in awe what the programm can make you do, although i never can get it exactly as i want it, a lot is a lucky find.i hope you keep on creating, because i like a lot of what you make.if there is really something you want to know and i can help, please let me know.  

monica

Thank you for sharing Monica.

I received a letter from one who did tell me something. I found it very interesting. I wish I could say more of how she worked, That is not for me to say or for me to share. I think if she wanted it to be heard she would had posted and not have personally written to me.  She did mention something I really never gave it a thought till then. I know I can share.   She had mention that most people find this too personal of a thing to talk about..Thinking about it I too hold back  and am “scared” of letting myself out to the open fully.  I am not implying this is why there are no replies to this.

I think I find protection and escape from my images and poetry. There is always a lesson of sort to learn from hidden thoughts waiting for the canvas or written in my words. Through expression of one. So I thought. People who you use their imagination through creative forces are truly a gift. I feel like I’m holding back or don’t fully use my potential. I have not fully used my imagination and expression. How can I grow more? Or/ And do  I have more imagination. When I was child I wondered where and how far I could get with my imagination . I would be excited about it. My parents would always say use your imagination. I would ask my imagination to come out. I would try to practice to get through and travel worlds only created by me though thought given to me through what they say and call an imagination.. but not be able to get it out on paper or through poetry. I knew then that I was scared of the unknown or what other would think about me.

I am not scared at the moment and but after starting this posting  I asked myself

“why did I do this” , I quickly looked for a delete button but my fear blinded me if there is one I did not see it and I quickly got off the sight.  If I knew how others work I might learn to express myself more. I am fascinated by their work or any form of creation from ones mind. I’ve have learn that it does not all come from what has been, ,but want I would might want to see or be. I’ve never said ok I want to go to Paris one day so I will produce this image. because this is where I plan to visit,

Do you understand what I am trying to say?

I don’t think people hold back because they are scared. I think they hold back because of fear from what they might find.  Not allowing themselves to fully use or comprehend how and where their mind might sent them. Then there are some who do dare go all the way with it .

Or do I just create through emotions and not the ability to create from my imagination because of my emotion?

When I painted on canvas I only paint the beauty off what  I had seen not  the beauty of what  I want or what I might see…or even make believe.  I admire those who can use their minds this way. If I don’t ask I am afraid I’ll never know. Some say, well I like art so I will be a artist.  As I am writing this I’m finding answers to by question and I grow more enriched with what has been given me.

Thank you for sharing and your tips. Every time I work I learn something new with UF  4 by trial an error and I’ll look up what I have forgotten in hope I’m able to comprehend it all. I’m still worlds away from knowing it all and may never get with math…lol. But I do have hope and need that I can use my imagination. It is for more to give something of myself.  What I do read I lose with short memory lost. So I have to go back and start from the beginning. There are times I fully comprehend though (never in one setting). Following direction I’ll have to read back to front in order to follow most of it. I don’t do on canvas as I did in my youth nor with ink or pastels because my handshakes too bad.

My daughter for Christmas brought me art supplies ask her gift to me hoping she could get me once again to create something for her. I am not even interesting in this  form, this time in my life. I as who I am, I  have to be in the “mood” right state of mind to create. My poetry can only be written when I am sad. I am bi polar so it comes easy for me at times…lol. I don’t go around wishing I was so I could write  a poem.  I found it as a healing tool as I am finding it with my work in fractals. I want to heal and create through imagination and grow,

Maybe I should just Google it.

Again thank you so much for your reply because you have shared with me , I am richer, I have learned and grown some more..

I am sorry that I bounce around through this and you may find it hard to comprehend.. I am sorry if I haven’t made myself clear. Please let me know if you comprehend . My bio is better than this post however I forgot parts that are written here.  Heck I had to go back and read what was all of post I made… lol,,, I might as well laugh with confusion and dare to ask a question. Than be confused and sad and allow my fears to run my life and stop my creative juices from running.

Good night.

Therese

If this reply were in image form, it would be mosaic. …lol ...oh how I have to laugh.

I'm going to add a little bit to this conversation.  I'm not as full of words right now, but I work in this medium, because I like the fact I don't have to clean up the art supplies or wash my hands or any of this stuff.  If I don't like what I do, I just don't save it and no one will see it in the trash can.  One of my old phobias... that someone would see something not up to snuff and think less of me.  Obviously, I've outgrown that part.  ;o)

I like fractal art because now, I can create images that may have interesting colors, shapes, textures, all of the above.  I used to be a commercial artist, so I find this much more relaxing since there is no pressure other than to have fun with it.  I will eventually work towards something like Renderix and some of the others are doing right now of compositions that create an image that represents something of meaning to most people.  I started this with a lot of fears that no one would like it and have found that more people like my "off the wall" art than the stuff I used to do by hand.  Funny, isn't it?  I have learned that "Art is between the ears."

The other part of fractals is that I have gotten back into dabbling with programming without the stress of deadlines or constantly having to debug.  It either works, produces or you move on.  It's also gotten me back into the world of mathematics gently in a way that isn't threatening. 

This group, best of all, has been the best of all worlds.  Supportive, kind, and inspirational.  I'm so glad fractals brought me here.  I guess I'll stop babbling now.  :o)  Bunny

Oh Bunny dear I can't express how much it menas that you share a slice of yourself with others and I.

I too love the fact that no clean up is required and my cloths are paint or ink free...lol My hands shake so doing work with my hands is out of the question.

I have to please my self with my work first. Then I know I'll please at least one person. I am my worst critic and am working on that by posting things I'm not real sure about. These are the ones I recieve more comments and input. I am trying to let go of the fear and pain and stop it from running my life.

I too am glad I found this place. It is changing me so much.

I have recieved more letters personally and I would like to say thank you to these persons who know who they are. I am learning so much with what you and others have bought me from the post.

Good day good people.

Therese

Glad I stumbled into the forum!

You raise a very good topic Therese and I would love to tell you whats in my head when creating. 

Absolutely nothing! 

I grab a program and just start messing around.  The image then begins to come to life on it's own.

For me,  when I have found something I like, I see stories and continue though the creating part until the story is no longer on the screen during the creating aspect.  I then share my thoughts (stories) with my images for other's to view.

I truly love when a good story pops up (image), it can go on for weeks or months; go away and come back again. 

If I were to sit down and had a plan in mind, without a prior creation setting the story, the stage, I would not be successful in finding what I wanted.  They have to come through the fiddling stage, and that is the most enjoyable of them all!

Dinese [=

denise, the fiddling queen has spoken.

monica

fiddling is art in itself

Monica, you are truly the best! :)

Thank you Denise... I really enjoyed you post.

Therese

Thank you Therese, you asked a grand question!