I don't do this very often, bugging you guys of my ranting and shyte. I'm in the middle of rethinking my life right now. Well, as of the moment (as was more than a year ago) I work freelance as a designer (graphics, production, web) and illustrator. I also manage an all-female garage band on the side. Most of my work I do at home, and I'm happy with being in control of my own time and with the fact that not working for somebody else. I have an active social life, this forum, the illustrators guild (InK), and my cat. Extra time allows me to pursue this photography thing, as well as other creative endeavors, and I don't have to wake up early in the morning. I have my ups and downs as well, but generally I can say that lately, I have been doing okay. (But donations are still welcome LOL...) Here's the snag. I received a call from a friend last night, telling me to call this woman from a studio. I talked to her today and she offered me fashion photography apprenticeship (digital) for a studio FULL TIME. I don't have to worry about equipment, they will provide studio, lighting, and a Kodak/Nikon 760 at my disposal. She says it might take a year to work the ropes. This idea sounds very promising and interesting, to say the least. She will look at my portfolio first; then we'll probably talk details later. Now, what is MY problem??? I know it's not settled yet, but I can't help thinking-- Can I do it? Honestly, I never thought of myself as a photgrapher. I mean, a real PRO. I don't know if I can fit in, find myself into it, and become one. Am I ready for this? It means I have to wake up at 6am, and probably get home around 9pm, not to mention the fact that I'll be stressed out from the long haul to work and back EVERYDAY. What about my other projects? This full time apprenticeship will eat up all my time. I can't just drop them (InK and the garage band for instance), as I have major responsibilities to carry out. Will they pay me more than what I'm getting now? (Operative term: apprenticeship) I guess it's good in a way because that means regular and stable source of income. But will it be worth giving up these things I like doing? It's not just the love for the art you know... I love photography, but I also love the comfort zone I'm in right now. Am I making a big deal out of this? It's hard to weigh all of these with me smack in the middle of it all. I want to be prepared when the moment for decision arrives (I think it's the control freak in me). Help.