My life has beem complicated over the last few months... I lost the woman I liove, wixh was pastedall over this forum, I lost faith... ui searched for it with no insparation, I went through 14 countries, camara in hand in search, and found it, I think tonight. I used to teach kendo, I was good, few in this world know this, it has been a long time, but some times our ple is heard. In my instance it came from a man named mathew, who I never thought I would hear from again. Then he showed up and bloodd me. made me defend my self, made me think, not just react to what god threw at me. I am trying to not blood my keyboard, as type this extaticly, thinking that I wish I could show you the outcome of my feeling. I am cut, deep. as deep as the sword that I last felt almost 10 years ago, and... it is nice. Sick thought isn't it. Cut in the way of bleeding and stiches, and all that sort of stuff. i haven't had the chance to defend myself, to fight back in well too long, the sting of the blade made me do so. I am out of my mind right now seeing things that are all too familiar, This is a waerd night. godd and bad. blood in the wrong contect. I was in televive in Jun. I saw alot of red, bad red, now I see the power of it. I have never been asulted in such a way. He was my friend and did so for the right reasons and I will love him for it, in every scar, every drop of blood. I think he gave me vision again, so be where, all of you with an eye for the world, because after tonight... I am going to show you a world that hold beauty in ways not emaginable. Insparation hits in the worst of times, all you have to do is make it through, and it will be there. i look forward to my next post, because it will be a masterpeace, like the beauty of the white between the red. So to you all, take the image in your head, and turn it in to majik, even if you need someone to help you realise it. The true power of this world, is the power of insparation, and for better or worce, I think i was just struck... Srtuck by a man i have not seen in 10 years, who i taught how to youse a sword. Tonight he made me me use mine in defence. First time ever. I wish I had a camara. (I used to teach kendo, for thouse of you confused, and matt was the man i traned with me.) I wish I could stake a "Self portrait" right now, It would say everything. -Gabe-