Stranded here in my pain Feeling the waves of misery crashing over me Relentlessly pacing my lonely room You left me here in this world alone With depressing thoughts of suicide To finally be with You Wishing I could die Yet not having the strength to end it Now that you are gone everything is repetition Nothing is real except for the deep irrepairable pain That your death has left One day at a time Lonliness and misery swallow me up Why did you have to go And leave me here with nothing One day, one mistake That can never be taken back That destroyed both our lives No positive emotion left Only anger Anger at being left alone Hatred Hatred at the world for stealing such a beautiful soul Fear Fear of a future without you The only thing i have left Bittersweet memories of your smiling face Hiding the tortured soul within The prime of your life ripped away from your unwilling hands I curse whatever higher being controls this earth You were a victim of your own weaknesses Your best friend, your worst enemy Your chemical gods What now What about me How can you leave me alone To struggle without relief I have so many questions for you But you're not here to answer them I need to vent all my anger, pain, fear and misery I scream at the top of my lungs But to no avail The feelings remain Devouring me whole I wish I was with you I have no strength anymore I dont know how I wake up Smile, laugh and live When all I want to do is curl up and die So that I can see you again But living is what you did best So why you? Why not me I feel so hollow I have an ache that will always be there A gaping cave that will never be filled