One can feel the internal struggle as they read on. The strength of spirit that keeps you grounded, for if you lost that part of you, you fall at the slightest breeze from a feather! And you don't know whether that ball inside you will implode or explode. Sometimes it's bigger than you. Then there is the wanting desperately to give over of yourself. To know that feeling of letting go completey to another. At the same time the screaming fear of it holds you back. Because to do so means you have to trust. In doing so, it means that not only do you learn to trust to give of yourself, but to honestly recieve it. Wonderfuly written, raw and emotive! I may not have gotten it 100%, but I do know this.. I caught the edges. ~Michelle~

Ginny, first off, "Hugs", and secondeveryone understands this on some level or another. Thank you for sharing, always in your corner one human, to another.

Hello, kind soul. It is said the definition of true insanity is doing something over and over again and expecting a different result. Hugs. Now, from this grumpy, old man: If you are dying and someone near and dear doesn't know it, methinks it's time to find someone who does? Stop hiding who/what you are. My best, always .... TallPockets.

Had to talk to my buddy before commenting on this piece. I wanted to see where all this was directed and it's origin if you know what I mean ;o) But now that I have I will say I agree with TP, maybe it's time to kick your worries to the curb. BUT you have got to get it straight on the fact that "You are not alone" not in this or in anything you wish to have help through. SYS GQ

Hello. I am a lover of your soul. I feel exactly what you are feeling. way to often. My heart is with you right now