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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
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Comments (8)
Lashia
Haha that happens with my sisters and I, too. Beautiful picture, I love her pose and the POV you used. Another stunning one :-)
A_
this is so intense! and beautiful light.
SoulSearcherr
she really has such a beautiful spirit to her
ARTWITHIN
Beautiful portrait. Tori's eyes display an innocence shining through, and something beautiful coming from her heart. You did a great job in showing that in your painting. Judgement is so foolish. Fear is the motivation to judge others, and it cripples the one judging.
mmirnii
amazing lighting. i like this one again.
cbender
thanks for sharing...
seothan
Good Lord where do you live that there is any judgement of that sort??Unbelievable.Also to H with that judgemental society,judgement means NOTHING but an intolerant righteous,merciless society.Soar above it.Your work is now(the change has been developing) reflecting the soul of an empathic seer and healer.You are becoming a true empath for those who have suffered,who need your voice,love and acceptence.This will enable their healing,seeing within/without,understanding and even though circumstances are individual the pain and victimization of our innocence is the hurdle we strive to overcome.You are a healer now.Truly,this is reflected in you words and your insightful and exceptionally perceptive art.
Kimberly.3D
yes she is beautiful piercings and all...