Please don't delete it, you are not alone and so many need to hear what your/our pain is, because of thier own invoiced...you may be the key that makes them write or speak...sending you love!

Ah! You didn't delete, step two. Step one was writing. As for who's reading, My Dad used to say if you talk to yourself one person will listen. Now step three read the comment/s and see if anyone else read. Step four... you decide. What waiting for advice? None here, not my pain. There are those who would feel diminished by you giving up. We will send our prayers. BJ

go out instead of in. get bigger. you have been programmed to be the way you are. spending more time alone is the best thing to do. the solution is to increase awareness. when you see things for what they are their hold on you disapears. i will send you a thoughtstream. Life & Laughter

Cool your 50th post.. Milestone ? WOOHOOO!!! Reminding you there are those of us who read and care. No advise and no judgments. Just be sure and take care of yourself #1,

Im scared of who I amscared of what I feelscared of what I dont feelscared of who I am not, and who I no longer am. Hell.I dont even know who I amwho is the true meam I the person I hide? The person I portray? Am I a lie?"" -- Hello, kind soul. Welcome to the 'human' race. As for 'advice': Some give it for only that. Others give it from true, heartfelt thought and usually from their own experiences. It is there for one to take or not. Most who take time to give it, genuinely do care, or why waste the time to do so? "PITYdont want it. Dont need it. I hate myself for being weakfeeling weak" Hello again, kind soul. The above two statements contradict one another from this old geezer's viewpoints? You are what you are, kind soul. That is GOOD enough. Stop being your own worst enemy. (Grumpy, old TallPocket's ''advice"). I DARE you to NOT 'delete' this piece! WINK. My best to you and yours, my fellow human. A work in progress, himself ..... TallPockets/brian.

Oh Dear, reading this is like riding on exposed nerve endings! It reads like the soul is caught in a battle zone between the heart and the mind. You know that you shouldn't be feeling this way, but your heart just hasn't caught up to the notion. And vice versa. And you still can't figure out why whether in silence or the thunder of life how it is those skeletons somehow manage to rattle you. I once posted a poem on another site. For me, and with what I've read here is (Almost) it in a nutshell. "So hard to give anymore, too many take, so few return. So hard to take anymore, just when I learned how it was gone. So hard to trust anymore, so much disappointment, so much pain. Just my luck, it being the prerequisite to love" There are still many unresolved parts we have. But at least knowing why is a begining, a baby step is a step none the less. And yes, it is easy for others to speak advice, but remember one thing. Those that do,(those without malice or impatience) do so in wanting to ease our pain. Many blessings to you. ~Michelle~

Take it one day at a time. Sometimes that is all you can do. Don't delete this, let is serve as a marker of where you are now and how far you'll improve and grow in the days and years to come. Best wishes to you.